Jimmie Allen contemplated taking his own life after her was involved in a sexual assault scandal.
In an interview with Kathie Lee Gifford posted on YouTube on Tuesday, the country singer opened up about contemplating suicide after being accused of sexual assault.
"I was sitting there and I literally felt like the whole world had just collapsed because the first thing my brain goes to is not the career. Is how I'm gonna provide for my kids," said Allen, 38.
The father-of-six noted that he remembered that his "life insurance covered suicide".
The singer continued, "And I don't feel that way now, but in that moment when you feel like you have nothing ... in the midst of a society where it's no longer innocent until proven guilty, you know, you're guilty. She said this, so it must be true."
In May 2023, Allen's manager accused him of raping her and sexually assaulting and harassing her on multiple occasions. She later dropped the lawsuit. In June 2023, a second woman accused him of filming himself sexually assaulting her in a Las Vegas hotel room. He denied the allegations.
"I remember I moved everything over to one phone, all my evidence, pictures, text messages, videos and everything," Allen recalled. "And I remember I was putting bullets in my gun clip."
The musician told Gifford that he then received a message from a friend that said, "Ending it isn't the answer".
"I called one of my buddies that lived in lower Delaware. He came up. I gave him my gun," he shared. "I said, 'Take it. I don't need it.' I remember my mom flew in, and then I started receiving phone calls from different artists checking in on me, saying that they loved me, care about me, they know who I am."
Allen added that he is "healing and growing" after taking a break from the spotlight and going to therapy.
